I've recently hit the ripe age of 34. Not an old age or one that I celebrated with dread of another year older and another year closer to death. In fact this year I've embraced my birthday. I can honestly say being in my 30s I feel much happier and confident and at one with myself. In fact I would say these are my most favourite years. I don't know if it's because I'm a mum and that given me a confidence of just being me. I know some mums like to feel more than just a mum but me i don't feel the need of being anything else but. I could also be feeling my inner peace because I just don't give a crap about the little things anymore. Life is made up of so many ups and downs you might as well just get on with it once you accept that you're already winning at life.
I'm not going to lie, I have often looked at my life and thought I'm old before my time and totally uncool. I'm in my 30s I love to embroider, something most people frown upon when you tell them that's how you make a living its also something that you associate with nannas. I see so many embroidery instagramers who are champions at their creativeness and I wonder if they feel old before their time too. Most ladies my age have a monthly subscription to birchbox and get all these lush beauty products where they get to pamper themselves, me I get a subscription to the caravan club. I'm giving up on this ever being cool and I shall just embrace the nomadic lifestyle I lead 8 weeks of the year. One thing that I do consider cool is the ability to carry off a top knot. I can't do this and I don't even try anymore with the chimp ears, witchy nose and Bruce Forsyth chin it's just not a good look for me. I like to wear a vest too, stand down ladies I'm not talking a woolly vest so it's not that bad is it? The thing is no one likes to get cold kidneys now do they? Oh and I have a slight heart condition now so let's face it nothing screams grandma when you add all these things together!
A year or so ago these things would of bothered me, wondering that people will think I'm weird because I enjoy doing all those things and now I just don't care. These are the things that make me who I am. I might not be a cool kid but I'm a mummy, who loves to stay at home or in a caravan whilst wearing a vest and sews.
I'm not sure what I'm trying to say other than embrace who you are, don't hide the little things that make you you.
Much as love